19 weeks. 

Baby #5 is growing well. Mommy is doing well. Kids are all handling it all OK. Daddy is still in shock.

BLUE, blue is the color of baby #5. 

Yep, another boy. 

Yep, we laughed. 

Yep, Mackenzie is still the only girl. 

Any other silly questions? 

June 15th, 2014

Mackenzie, a month from 12. 

Luke, 9 yrs

Mason, 5 1/2 yrs

Levi, 3 yrs

Baby! 

Perspective

It is all about Perspective.
As I heard a comment TWICE in ONE day. .....
I had to see the Perspective.
What you say was this comment?
Oh, I'm a gonna tell you.
(PS. YOU, I am not upset. I swear)
"Oh, My cousin is due in April and she is about as big as you". (I'm due in JUNE!!!)
Followed a few hours later by:
"How far along are you? about 6 months or so?" (new acquaintance)
Me:  "huh, uh, well, nope. Ah, well about 6 LEFT"
Hey people. This is the SIXTH time I have stretched out my tiny housing unit.
(but this need not apply, I was just as huge the first time LOL)
God truly does make all kinds. You will all get quite a kick out of just HOW big I can get.
I don't mind. I really don't. If. I. Did. I. Would. NOT. have. Done it. again!
Think about that. ... (no, not that much).
You think I don't know!
If I did not want to HOUSE another HUMAN ...... I would not be.

As I tried to dress the new baby-bump for a delightful wedding. (the same day as the Huge comments)
I struggled to find something "flattering".
I simply have Nothing to wear.
HELLLLO!
No one cares what I wear to the wedding. IT IS NOT ABOUT ME>
Dear Bride. It is about YOU.
I am so glad You invited us to your special day. I do not care what I wear. I know it is your day.
My sweet husband and my delightful daughter reassured me that I looked "fine". (geez, thanks)
It is not about my wardrobe,
It is not about my months, (size)
It is not about ME.

What is YOUR perspective?
Is it about YOU?
Does it always have to be about you?
Do you put others first?
Is it really true that you have nothing to wear?
PERSPECTIVE>

To GOD be the GLORY for great things HE has done.

God bless the marriage of Luke and Sarah T.
It was beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!
and I did have something to wear.
I did look "fine".
Actually, I looked pretty good.
Confidence is pretty.

PALMER BABY # 5

Surprise?!

Palmer baby #5 is due

June of 2014. 

Black pages

As I posted my first NEW post..

I saw my BLOG background is Black. 

It seems almost fitting. 

It sounds a bit morbid. 

HOWEVER>>>>>>

New beginnings come from darkness. 

but after the darkness.......

comes the ......

LIGHT>>>>

Our new Adventure!

You just never know what life will throw at you yet.
I used to write.
I did.
I used to journal. I used to "blog". I used to.
Then I had a miscarriage.

I don't know what happen to the writing. The writing stopped.
Was it that I could not write it down?
Where had my writing gone?
I have very few posts since Levi was born but the writing stopped before that.
My miscarriage was in November of 2007.
Yes, it has been a few years.
Where has my writing gone?
I can, in no way, get caught up.
So here we begin anew.

My newest adventure. ..... Lord, if  you are willing, May I have my writing back?

Mason on an appetite "increasant"

Mason on appetite "increasant"
9:40 pm.
In a "benedryl, type stupor"

In reference to a "go to bed" (again) request countered with an "I'm hungry" whine.

M: " but daaaadddd,  I NEEEEEEED to eat something. I need a popcicle-> it has TONS of protein and I need protein."
Dad: "No Mason it does not have tons of protein---it has tons of sugar"
M: "No Dad, I NEED PROTEIN! What else can I eat? "
Dad: "a cow. THAT has protein."
M: "do we have any cow?"
Dad: "no but we have milk and milk comes from cows!"
M: "Chocolate milk???? does it have tons of protein? Cuz I neeeeeed protein"
Dad: "Do you know what protein does? "
M: "yes, it makes your brain grow, mommy said"


Mason 4 years and 2 weeks. He is my smartest baby ever.

Shingles at 35

I have been ill. I have shingles. 

As I am in pain, struggling through my day, I have had lots of time to think. I have been thinking of all the people I know with "invisible chronic diseases". I have been thinking of those with chronic pain. I have been thinking of people with no health care (no political statements here). I have been thinking of all the days of countless blessings God has given me. I have been thinking of the great year of pretty good health my family has had this past year.  I have been thinking of the family friends we know with children with cancer! Oh, Lord, Bless them. 

I sat down to my computer in my lazy, I don't want to do anything, read FB moments, and I opened a friend's blog. It was titled "Just me". She states she is lots of things to lots of people but here in this blog she is "just her". I began to think, "who am I?" I don't know who I am. Just me. Who am I? I don't know what I do in my spare time. I don't know what my hobbies are. I don't know what my favorite movie is. I don't know what my favorite book is. I feel a little lost. 

I know, I know, I know, I know, I have a husband (who has pneumonia right now, by the way. Dude! I have shingles, could you have waited until I was done being sick before you started getting pneumonia, please!)  I have a 10 yo (next week),  I have a 7 yo, I have a 3 yo, I have a 1 yo, I have chores, I have responsibilities, I have people who count on me. I have plenty to DO. I am always busy. But I wonder, is there more to ME? 

I sound so selfish. I am me. I am all those things. But I can't answer the basic questions. I don't read--so what books do I like? --well, I have no idea. I don't go to the movies--so how do I know what is on these days? I don't Pinterest. I don't do art. I don't do crafts. I don't cook/bake (when not required to do so). I don't go shopping. I don't go on "girl time" dates. My room is a mess and it bothers me. I clean the entire house but not my room. 

So, here I go.... I embark on a mission..... I shall find myself. Please pray I find myself close by. I don't want to get lost out there in the scary world. Please post on here or FB any good SMALL project to try or books to read, (make the books fun and SHORT, library or borrowed). Ask me any questions that I might need to answer in order to find myself. I will try. I will. 

I do like to write. But I don't ever do that either. I like to speak on Missions. I like to speak about parenting. I like to encourage. Hum, we might be on to something............................

July 2, 2012

Confirmation/Affirmation

If we follow the Leader, He will confirm/affirm us. 

As I search for my place, my position, my soil to bloom in, 

I ask questions, I pursue, I dig.

Some days it seems useless, 

Some days it seems like time is not on my side. 

And as a faithful servant, 

The affirmation comes by way of the most unexpected source,

YOU! My peers. 

Thank you dear friends for following God's lead and the prompting of the Holy Spirit, 

In your affirmation. 

You will never truly know the impact you have had on my life, 

In just those few spoken words of encouragement, discernment, prophecy and love. 

Not answers, not expicit direction, not details, 

but just the words I was supposed to hear, 

at the time I was supposed to hear them. 

 

YOU are a blessing to me. 

Thank you for doing YOUR part in my life. 

April 2012

 Levi James Palmer March 30th, 2011

 Look how tiny my feet are!

 The Monster and the Frog

April 2011, Waco, TX