To Add to the Stress...
We had a miscarriage on Nov 5th.
For those of you who did not know...
sorry, we did not tell you yet.
For those of you who did know...
sorry to tell you and then take it away.
The ABSOLUTE most horrible thing,
We had to tell Mackenzie.
She had been excitedly asking each night to pray for
"the baby in mommy's tummy" (as well as Aunt Kelly's and several other friends)
How do you tell a 5 year old, God took the baby to heaven!?
We all cried together for a few days.
This week she said to her dad "Dad, don't pray for the baby in mommy's tummy tonight, it is not there anymore!" In that child-like -matter- of -fact- manner we have lost as adults.
The very next day she found Luke's old diaper bag and exclaimed "MOM. When we get our next new baby, we have to remember to use this diaper bag!" In that same "GOD provides" manner of her child-like faith.
We should all remember the faith of a child... God will provide... and if He does not... well then, we did not need it right then....
Oh, but my heart is broken.
November 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Emotions
Emotions run high.
As we approach yet another move,
(moving from a mission house to a rental we can make our own)
Mackenzie is "crisising", tears and disobedience are a part of our day.
Change is a tough part of everyone's life.
Today, she and I got out the picture books and talked about the AWESOME times God has given us, Nicaragua, friends and family. She misses Nicaragua, our friends and living with her Granny and Grampa.
We have moved several times in her tiny little life and some of those moves were
Quite the distance!
Dominican Republic, Nicaragua and Texas in her first 5 years of life!!
The word MOVE brings about scary thoughts of distance and loss.
We have all been through it. We have all learned to deal with it. We all must learn, in our own way, HOW to deal with it. Sometimes Remembering with pictures makes us cry, but it also helps us see how God has protected us and blessed us beyond measure. Crying is not bad, sometimes we need to express our emotions through tears.
Go ahead baby girl, cry. I miss things too!
November 2007
As we approach yet another move,
(moving from a mission house to a rental we can make our own)
Mackenzie is "crisising", tears and disobedience are a part of our day.
Change is a tough part of everyone's life.
Today, she and I got out the picture books and talked about the AWESOME times God has given us, Nicaragua, friends and family. She misses Nicaragua, our friends and living with her Granny and Grampa.
We have moved several times in her tiny little life and some of those moves were
Quite the distance!
Dominican Republic, Nicaragua and Texas in her first 5 years of life!!
The word MOVE brings about scary thoughts of distance and loss.
We have all been through it. We have all learned to deal with it. We all must learn, in our own way, HOW to deal with it. Sometimes Remembering with pictures makes us cry, but it also helps us see how God has protected us and blessed us beyond measure. Crying is not bad, sometimes we need to express our emotions through tears.
Go ahead baby girl, cry. I miss things too!
November 2007
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