To Add to the Stress!

To Add to the Stress...
We had a miscarriage on Nov 5th.
For those of you who did not know...
sorry, we did not tell you yet.
For those of you who did know...
sorry to tell you and then take it away.
The ABSOLUTE most horrible thing,
We had to tell Mackenzie.
She had been excitedly asking each night to pray for
"the baby in mommy's tummy" (as well as Aunt Kelly's and several other friends)
How do you tell a 5 year old, God took the baby to heaven!?
We all cried together for a few days.
This week she said to her dad "Dad, don't pray for the baby in mommy's tummy tonight, it is not there anymore!" In that child-like -matter- of -fact- manner we have lost as adults.
The very next day she found Luke's old diaper bag and exclaimed "MOM. When we get our next new baby, we have to remember to use this diaper bag!" In that same "GOD provides" manner of her child-like faith.
We should all remember the faith of a child... God will provide... and if He does not... well then, we did not need it right then....
Oh, but my heart is broken.
November 2007